Avoiding crowded places

Afraid of going to crowded places, it has been quite sometime since we went to the mall. Since it was quite boring on last weekend, hubby suggested we go out but my little girl insisted on having us wearing mask. I am really amaze to learn that she has so much awareness on H1N1 after teacher talk to them about (such as proper way to wash hands, avoiding crowded places and such).

Aiyo…if wanna wear mask, might as well we stay at home, right? Furthermore, how to get my 2 boys to wear mask ler? Eh, we have not get insurance for our kids ler. Since we do not have the budget to increase our monthly premium, we are actually under insured with our current policy. How I wish the life insurance rates are made more affordable for big families like ours.

Low confident child

First my girl thinks that “specky is UGLY”. Then recently, she refuse to join the kids for games at her best friend’s birthday party in Mac Donald.

Last weekend it was the second time QQ was invited to attend a birthday party at Mac D. Just like the first time, she refuse to sit in with her friends, but instead “kepit” under my wings with sitting with the parents. When games started, Iris came over to pull her hand to play, but she just refuse (although I tried to bring her out to hold her friend’s hands). The moment, I let go, she will run back to me like a small little children.

I am really sad to see my girl behave this way. Although she is now already 2nd year in pre-school, can see that her confident level is way too low compare to kids her age. Now I am tempted to enroll her into after school classes so that she can mix with more people without me around.

Updates on my lil men

Almost abondoned blog here.

Just some update on my boys:
Despite already one year old, my punk hair twin boys only have hairs in the middle of their head. Not sure why, they are still almost hairless. At their 2nd pnuemmococal jab yesterday (we were poorer by Rm560 again this round visit), their weight and height was found below average (chart slopping downward). Doctor was a bit concern and asked to do a blood test to check on their iron deficiency. Bills on jabs are already too high so I though it is not neccessary to do the test. Furthermore, insufficient in iron is normal for breastfed babies, right?

Feeding 2

I just can’t help but feeling proud of myself that I am still able to breastfeed the boys now, at 10 months. I know, it sounds almost unbelievable to most as it takes a lot of effort to successfully breastfeed one baby, what’s more feeding two.

Yesterday while running my errands, I was talking to some ladies while waiting for my food and they commented that my twins must be “pricey” in terms of spending on milk powder and disposable diapers. Not wanting to explain in details about cloth diapering in a hot coffee shop, I just merely tell them they are not that expensive, apart from being difficult to take care of. Reason is because they are still on breastmilk only, and we have not invest a single sen on formula as of today.

Guess where their eyes go to immediately after that?

*common reaction*
I bet anyone listen to my answer would shift their eyes to my body part to find out if I am that BIG to be able to feed TWO! Hey, I know you are now imagine how I look …….Ok… I admit, they are rather small after all!

My greedy twin

I expected jealousy to start between the boys, but it happens even sooner than I thought.

Whenever one boy sees me carrying another, he will change his face expression to a pity look. Then he will start crying asking me to carry him too. So now, whenever I breastfeed them, I have to also feed another at the same time. Unlike when they were younger, tt is not that difficult to feed 2 babies at the same time as I can just “drag and adjust” their limbs and bodies to me easily since they are harder on their bones.

There are lots of funny position that I can think of when feeding them, particular Di-di. He would sometimes climb over me, going round like a clock. Sometimes they poke each other in eyes, and sometimes they pull hairs and ears of another party. At one time, he even pushed poor Kor-kor away, and continue helping himself with Kor-kor’s meal!

Each breastfeeding moment is such a memorable experience for me. If only I could have pictures to share…, but hmm….it is so difficult. *hint hint to Jazzmint and Sue’s help on our next photography session*

Di-di is down with flu

Just shortly after Kor-kor’s recovery from Roseola, again I got to endure another series of sleepless night. This time it is Di-di! Surprisingly Roseola did not get him (although they share their milk supply, you know what I mean), but he is down with flu since 2 days ago. Poor baby Then could not drink well, and sleep too, as his nose is badly blocked.

It is only since yesterday night he could sleep better after taking the flu medicine. I know flu bugs are inevitable in every childhood, but can’t it just spare me a few moments of recovery after the last episode? Arrgh…..I kept on asking myself, what is the use of being chubby and cute while they not blessed with good health?

Work again?

It is indeed quite challenging to be a full time mother. Instead of being able to sit and communicate in front of my laptop, now I have to spend more time with the boys. Although they still cannot crawl, they definitely cannot sit quietly in one place for long anymore. They wanna be carried after playing for awhile. Even attention spam is shorter now and they cannot play with one toy for long. Sometimes I really feel like giving up and run away these madness to go out to work instead. I don't know, I really don't know now.

I also WANT!

After a long, long wait, finally the boys are able to play with their sister now. At almost 8 months, now they love to snatch things from each other. Whenever the boys see their sister playing with something, they would love to have it on their hands too. Little Di-di is even worse as he can chase his sister around the house. Thank goodness he is still in his walker, therefore his movement is a bit constraint. I cannot imagine what it would be like when the boys are able to walk independently on their own, very very soon!

I want that!

I hear a lot of request from QQ nowadays. Unlike when she was younger, it is easier for her peers to influence her now. Whenever she sees what her friends have, she will come back and start to push me into getting one for her. When I refuse, she will start to get angry, and most of the time even pour her anger back at me. I cannot really blame her, but I do hope to be able to change the way she thinks. I can only blame it on myself that she has my gene!

Still not crawling

They still do not start crawling :) Maybe we hardly put them down on the floor, instead they were in their walker all the time. Hubby just made me realize how unsafe it is to put them down in our hall as the floor tiling was not done properly. There are many sharp corners between the joints which may cut their delicate skin if the crawl on their tummy. But we still need to put them down, don't we? Sigh....if only we can afford to do timber flooring on our whole floor for the kids!

Sweet smelling Mama

Although the boys still on direct breastfeeding, they love to drink plain water from milk bottle (I use Dr Baby smelly rubber teats). I introduce bottle to them quite some time ago as I afraid they would not accept bottle milk when they grow up in future. I tried giving them formula through bottle (just for fun to see if I can escape from breastfeeding at times) but they throw out upon sucking it. *No luck escaping from the boys*. At this moment, they are still very attached to me. The only time I can escape is during their morning porridge feed (that is the only 2 hours I zoom out to do my facial treatment). Taking solid now could at least keep their little tummy filled for a while before they decided to sniff and smell Mummy again….

Lion Dance

My little girl fancy the Lion Dance very much ever since she was young. She has a mini head and she used to perform lion dance with her father behind her. She even stay up late at night now to watch the NTV7 local drama series just because of the Lion dance.

This year her school organised one during their CNY celebration. I was there too, taking videos with my camcorder with one hand while another hand closing my son’s ear!

It is indeed difficult to bring the Bumbo Boys out to crowded area like that without hubby. I even had to reach school 30mins earlier, just to make sure I get a good parking right in front of the school so that I would not have to go round in the housing area looking for a space.

Difference between the boys

As the twin boys grow, I notice that their real character begins to show more. One has more traits of mummy and one has more trait of daddy. Can guess who? It is so difficult to take care of didi as he gets really angry and scream all his might when mummy goes away. Korkor on the other hand will cry but not as loud as didi. Poor Korkor, I can see that he will be his little brother's victim in future!

Words from a selfish mother

My days are getting packed as the boys grow. I hardly have a chance to sit in front of my computer leisurely nowadays as compare to before. They need my attention, I know and I should be grateful that I have a chance to be their parents, watching them grow at home with my own eyes. It is my personal choice to let go of my own freedom, to be a stay-at-home mum in the first place. Nothing can be more precious than spending time with my own kids, be it letting go of my own time and privacy.

I do still feel remorse over the incident which happened 2 days ago. I still feel bad and ashamed over how an adult with a right mind can behave in this way. I keep on reminding myself that I am lucky that I still able to get up in the next morning, with all my children safe beside me. GOD creates them and put them in my hands so that I could love and nourish them. HE has put his trust on me to take care of them and raise them, to love them and to cherish them. After all, these little helpless children have not done anything wrong. All they want is mummy's warm hug for comfort and milk when they feels hungry. All they need is mummy's attention and love.

I learn my lesson. I do, I really do.

Fever again

Since Christmas last year, Kor-kor has been getting his "monthly fever" and has been put on antibiotic. Not sure the exact cause as blood test has been done, there is nothing to be found. He is always the one and I am so worried whenever I catch him hot in the middle of the night. I am really getting worry if there is some other reason that caused him feverish each month. Hope it is viral infection and nothing else.

Happy Birthday to Kong-Kong

Last Saturday we celebrated Kong-kong's birthday while we were back in Melaka. Nothing much special for dinner, but just a cake (my favourite Mille Crepes) for the kids to blow candles (instead of their Kong-kong!).

It was the first time the boys were back in Melaka, after their birth. I was supposed to meet up with a few old friends and some bloggers in Melaka. Too bad, we did not make it as our meeting place, Dataran Pahlawan was too pack (due to the going on PC Fair!).

However Miche came over to my mum's place and we had a great chat! So good to see you again, Miche, and hey, you look good with your bump ler... (at least can see you gain some "inches" at the right place, haha!)

Santa Claus or Choy San?

Like any other child, QQ loves the feeling of Christmas. Although we do not celebrate Christmas, I love the feel of this magical season (probably I watch too much cartoon when I was young that makes me want to believe the existance of Santa Claus coming into home thru the chimney!)

Seeing other home so nicely decorated with Christmas tree, QQ wants one too. But of course my 'Cina-pek' hubby would not want to spend on the accessories, whats more to store it after the celebration. Here is a conversation how hubby dampen QQ's interest on Christmas.

QQ: Pa...I want to celebrate Christmas. Got Santa Clause!

Papa: CNY also got "Chai Shen Yeah" mah...(Choy San, the Money God)

QQ: Santa Claus give presents mah....

Papa: " Chai Shen Yeah" gives $$$ wor....

Bumbo Boys @ 5 months

"Innocent look" Kor-kor at 5m2wks

Weight: 6.89kg

I am so tied up with the boys recently as they refuse to be left alone. As day passed, they get wiser (meaning naughtier too) and both want to be carried at all time (often look at me, wanting me, ONLY ME to carry them all time!)

"Cheeky face" Di-di at 5m 2wks

Weight: 6.6kg

They just had their 5th month 6-in-1 jab and 2nd dose of Rotavirus few days ago. Di-di did not gained much weight and surprisingly Kor-kor even lost weight this month*starting to worry now*. Not sure if my milk is no longer enough for them (can't help feeling very low confidence about my milk supply as they cry so frequently) or it was because they were sick for quite a period. My paed even said that breastfed babies tend to gain weight slower than formula fed babies. True ah? *scratch head* But if true how come Chanel's beautiful Ariel could gain such a good weight with only breastmilk but mine sampai loose weight?

Since they are crying so frequently (dono naughty or hungry...sigh), I plan try to introduce some solid this week to see if there is any improvement to their behaviour.

Easier to shop now

Now that the boys are older, they seem to be able to enjoy being pushed too, in stroller. However only one will get a seat while the other seat is always being occupied by our old baby!

Although I still need to stop occasionally to breastfeed the babies, change their diapers (sometimes twice for one baby when they poo), dine with wailing babies (especially when they are cranky), our shopping is definitely more fun as long as QQ does not make a fuss during our outing.

I always tell my husband, babies are more easier to take care of as compare to demanding toddlers, agree?

Another wedding for myself?

Although QQ is already four, she can be very unreasonable at times. For instant, she has a weird dream of me kissing his father at our wedding. Then she woke up crying said I did not bring her along to my wedding.

I tried to explain to her that couples only get married once, and after they have kids, they no longer “Re-married”. But she just refuse to listen, and demand that me and hubby must get married again this SUNDAY! She even planned everything for our wedding, like when to put to fire crackers, what colour gown I must wear, what food should be served and blah, blah, blah……

I guess it is because recently her nanny brought her to witness a wedding from morning wedding until night dinner. That is why, she is dreaming about wanting to attending her own mother’s wedding….

Sigh….don’t know how shall we do again to “Remarried” this Sunday!